a thought…

Ever wish your life didn’t suck so bad? Be glad you don’t have Fibrodysplasia Ossificans Progressiva.

Just finished reading Faust. Why? Because of something Jonathan Franzen said in an essay about how it helps to connect with history. To realize that people have always been as f****d up as they are now and that our current problems aren’t so extraordinary. That Goethe, either he was ahead of his time or humans just haven’t changed all that much. I think it’s the latter.

Each little person lives a life, makes mistakes, has revelations, feels special and unique, dies. The next one comes along and does and thinks and feels the same things. And dies. Yes, of course there is change. But from a universal perspective, it’s ultimately meaningless. In Faust, everyone gets saved, regardless of their actions. The Lord even loves Mephisto; at least he tells him: I never hated those who were like you. Negation and creation equally necessary.

Next up: Prince, by Ib Michael, recommended by Mark.

Eye Update: 12 straight days of no pain. This morning, Day #13, a nice little bit of cornea-ripping. But at least my flesh is not turning into bone!

American Idol Update: Paula Abdul looked like a drag queen tonight. Jasmine’s flower was back in her hair. (My dad must have said something to her.) 2 different performers did Barbra Streisand songs. (Were you peeing on yourself, Mark?) I voted for Fantasia 35 times.

Blog Excuse Update: I haven’t been blogging so much lately because… um… I’ve been writing a lot more in my private journal and… I’m putting together something really great for later (yeah, right)… the weather has been too warm to stay inside at the computer… I’m off caffeine again and can’t focus too well… Can’t stop listening to stupid things on the news, like Donald Rumsfeld explaining that “It wasn’t torture; it was abuse.” Oh! My bad… I have too many DVDs to watch and not enough time (next up Elephant and then the original Solaris followed by the George Clooney remake)… and… nobody’s really reading this anymore anyway. Right?

4 thoughts on “a thought…

  1. Kmeelyon

    05.05.2004 4:18 am

    I’m still here. I’m glad your eye was okay….for awhile.

    Sucky that it won’t heal correctly.

    But let’s talk about important things, like American Idol.

    I am convinced that Paula Abdul is addicted to painkillers. She seems more and more loopy each week and her make-up is getting outlandish, but she seems oddly cheerful and giddy. I tried to vote for La Toya tonite, and when I got a busy signal for five minutes straight, I looked at Steve and said, “It’s Beth. She won’t let me get my call through.”

    I think that the problem with American Idol right now is that people vote for their favorites… and they vote a zillion times. And the process is screwed up. We should be voting people OUT. I think it would work a lot better that way. I think people wouldn’t cast sympathy votes for people. They would just vote out the person they want to go.

    Oy, I’m tired.

  2. MARK

    05.05.2004 4:50

    I did have to wipe away the moistness last night- Was amazed that LaToya could figure out where she was in that butchered up Don’t Rain on my Parade. The same for Fantasia with What are you doing the rest of your life? But they only have a certain amount of time to sing. Hmph!

    Was totally underwhelmed by Diana- I thought she was off key and out of her league. Jasmine is gone- she was just awful. George is a cutie- and I really think he took to the genre last night- didn’t think he was just a cruise ship singer level. Poo on you Simon. And yes! What is up with the spaced out funny looking Ms Abdul. She was a freak last night.

    and vote I did- but it was extremely difficult to get through – so I just waited for an hour. |

  3. Kmeelyon

    05.05.2004 11:14 pm

    I watched Idol on Tivo, so it wasn’t until about 9:00 when I tried to vote. Forgot though that I was only competing against other La Toya voters. So it’s good news I couldn’t get through. I really think Paula is going to end up at Promises soon. Otherwise, I agree Mark. Diana’s songs were too ambitious for her and they plowed over her. I wouldn’t mind catching her in another 5-10 years though. I also noticed that Fantasia mangled some of her lyrics, but she plays it off well. I can barely wait until it’s just three people…so long as it’s the right three.

  4. Dad

    05.06.2004 8:39 pm

    >>Jasmine’s flower was back in her hair. (My dad must have said something to her.) << Why how did you guess? We went down the street to Mom’s house and told her, “Jasmine needs plumeria!” And see what happened? Didn’t you ever want to be a person of influence? Power?

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